February 2012
15 posts
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“I never thought this life was possible. You’re the yellow bird that...”
– Poison Oak by Bright Eyes
Anonymous asked: Do you need someone to talk to? I need someone to talk to.
I’m on one of my turns. Cycling like a washing machine.
The loneliness burns knowing no one here can relate to me.
It’s a strange mixture of anger and empty
Trying not to lose control, but irrationality tempts me.
I could burn every bridge in minutes
If they let me have conjugal visits
I could defy all earthly limits
And show you heaven.
But I’ve no patience to teach you...
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January 2012
11 posts
That awkward moment when you have no chapstick and your lips are dryer than the Atacama.
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Belize was the most incredible experience I’ve had so far in this lifetime that I’m actually getting post-trip depression. I don’t think I belong in the US anymore. I feel more like a stranger each time I come home.
December 2011
46 posts
Leaving for Belize in an hour…
excited
nervous
tired
excited
excited
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I want you to miss me so bad that you cry and ache at night
Cause it kills me not to hear from you as yet another day goes by
I’m far too scared and stubborn to make the first move
So if you don’t break the silence, then I’ll have to quit this ruse
I’m getting too old to play these games, yeah too cold to sit and wait
With my heart out on the line for someone to take...
confession: I’m a (mostly) white girl with trivial problems and middle-class parents, and I want to be a rapper.
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Lean on Me by Bill Withers
Sometimes in our...
It would be so easy to slip back into depression
to forfeit control of myself to the cold hands of sadness
to lose all my self worth and faith and the will to live with this pain
to take one heavy-hearted step closer to the edge that separates life from death
to memorize lines and expressions to feed to family members to keep them in the dark
about how much it hurts and how badly I’m...
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Dear Dreams,
You’ve grown bigger this year. I have to say that you are one of the few things that have kept me alive and living. Sometimes I have bad days where I don’t want to get out of bed. I just want to lay under the covers and slowly fade out of existence. You are what keep me from taking myself out of this world. Without you, the robotic functions of everyday life would be totally pointless...
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This town is a prison, and my cellmate is my past.
I’m a hopeless giver; I’ve surrendered all I have.
When the present brings my water, I drink yet thirst for more.
When the future likewise offers, I yearn for a drink more pure.
I’ve seen a life beyond these times. My soul aches to be set free,
But I share fetters with old lang syne. When shall I be released?
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Plans for tomorrow:
wake up super early and run
paint my room
eat some raisin bread
It will be an eventful day.
